Lost x 3

I'm lost... Totally lost.
What do I want? What am I suppose to choose?
There's a chance, the only matter is do I afford to grab this chance?
Should I choose the one I've more confidence to deal with or choose the one which seems better?
It may seems better but it's still lousy if I can't play my role well.
I've to make a decision but after suffering insomnia, after discussing with few friends, I still don't know what to choose.
I'M SO LOST.......................................

The Greatest Love

Today I felt touch when I read the headline of China Press. Actually, that wasn't headline, the writer called it as an advice.
The title of the article was 趁一切还来得及，告诉妈妈，你爱她, the writer mentioned a paragraph of 诗人余光中 《母难日》之《今生今世》.
“今生今世，我最忘情的哭声有两次，一次在我生命的开始，一次在你生命的告终。第一次我不会记得，是听你说的；第二次你不晓得，我说也没用。但两次哭声的中间啊，有无穷无尽的笑声，一篇又一篇，回荡了整整三十年，你都晓得，我都记得。”
It was so meaningful.
The writer also mentioned the mother dead in the accident with her 9-month old unborn baby few days ago. The doctor took out the baby girl and let her to sleep beside her mother forever.
The writer wrote a very impressing article which end with a sentence as below
“来不及听第一声哭声，来不及亲第一个吻，来不及送你一程。。。已是永恒；母爱，一路相随。”
I would like to praise this writer named 甄子权. I don't know him, I just know that his writing made me moved.

I LOVE YOU, MUMMY!

An Ending Is A Beginning

Finally, the exam is over.
When I walked out from exam hall, I didn't feel as relieved as I thought.
I was exhausted.
I stopped doing revision last night 'cause I know it's no point to go on.
However, I couldn't fall in sleep whole night. That's why I was so tired after the second exam paper.
I entered kindergarten when I was 6, I'm 23 this year. 18 years of education, how much have I learned? My education journey comes to an end temporarily. It's time to confront a bigger challenge -- to compete in the work field.
What kinda career I want? What is my dream actually?
My future is gonna begin soon. I must take a step forward, otherwise, my future is gone.