There was 1 mistake occured today but it ain't my fault at all. I shouldn't be the scapegoat.
I tried to protest my innocence. Manager asked me to get the proof. I tried hard and eventually I found it, then how? It was still considered as my mistake. This is the real working world, aint it?
I know my reasons were not firm enough... I kept saying "I don't know...", " I thought...", " I heard from senior...", " I follow the instruction..." All these reasons seemed like excuses. Ya, my senior asked me to do in that way but the manager won't blame her. He just will blame the one who do the mistake, not the one showing the way to do the mistake. I simply can't take it!
The cruelty of the workplace. When boss said you're wrong. You're wrong 'cause boss is always the right one. When boss said you have other choices besides following his instruction. You're actually no choice 'cause the only choice is don't work under your boss anymore.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
这么近，那么远
一切又要回到原点
一趟旅程，一次铭心的经验
对梦的眷恋
想象，若隐若现
惆怅，更加明显
是否只要走过历练
梦，就会实现？
一声“不”的回应
梦醒时分的明天
又会有什么体验？
人啊，不应该过一天算一天
关键是：
准备好了吗？
能搁下顾虑吗？
够勇敢吗？
够坚强吗？
不后悔吗？
一小时廿分钟的时间
差一步，就是全新的开始
转变就在眼前
感性的想，是这么的近
理性的想，是那么的远
。。。。。。。。。。。。
无言
一趟旅程，一次铭心的经验
对梦的眷恋
想象，若隐若现
惆怅，更加明显
是否只要走过历练
梦，就会实现？
一声“不”的回应
梦醒时分的明天
又会有什么体验？
人啊，不应该过一天算一天
关键是：
准备好了吗？
能搁下顾虑吗？
够勇敢吗？
够坚强吗？
不后悔吗？
一小时廿分钟的时间
差一步，就是全新的开始
转变就在眼前
感性的想，是这么的近
理性的想，是那么的远
。。。。。。。。。。。。
无言
Monday, November 22, 2010
Too Careless!
Today suppose be a relaxing day though the job volume is high, there was no special or weird case. However I made an mistake and spoiled the day.
I wonder what would happen tomorrow? Could the KL team assists me without blaming? Would Thailand team treat it as nothing? What explanation could I give if being escalated??
Seniors could do nothing to save this situation but I'm grateful that they didn't blame on me. They tried to console me not to be worry and don't fail to fall in sleep tonight.
This is not the first time I made such huge mistake. Last time didn't get scolded by seniors and this time, either. However I felt extremely guilty for this latest mistake. It could be prevented and it could be solved without being carried forward. The situation suppose won't be too bad... But I let mistake bred mistake. My irresponsibility made it became worse.
Stupidity might be acceptable but negligence will never be forgivable. Take this lesson and never repeat! Every mistake just made it once, ENOUGH. I might not a smart girl and the level of intelligence is out of my control. But at least there's one thing I can do, which is stop being careless.
I wonder what would happen tomorrow? Could the KL team assists me without blaming? Would Thailand team treat it as nothing? What explanation could I give if being escalated??
Seniors could do nothing to save this situation but I'm grateful that they didn't blame on me. They tried to console me not to be worry and don't fail to fall in sleep tonight.
This is not the first time I made such huge mistake. Last time didn't get scolded by seniors and this time, either. However I felt extremely guilty for this latest mistake. It could be prevented and it could be solved without being carried forward. The situation suppose won't be too bad... But I let mistake bred mistake. My irresponsibility made it became worse.
Stupidity might be acceptable but negligence will never be forgivable. Take this lesson and never repeat! Every mistake just made it once, ENOUGH. I might not a smart girl and the level of intelligence is out of my control. But at least there's one thing I can do, which is stop being careless.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
A Trial
Irrational decision, irrational decision, I made an irrational decision. How?
Am feeling guilty but I still made it. Waste time (not only mine), waste energy and waste money... And if the real purpose of my decision is being disclosed, woah, I couldn't imagine how terrible is the outcome.
Don't know what to wish myself. Good luck. For what? Whatever the results is, there's only 1 conclusion which I've already made.
I know I did wrong. What am doing just to satisfy my caprice.
Whatsoever. Just take it as a trial, just treat it as an experience, once in a lifetime.
"Grab a chance and you won't be sorry for a might-have-been."
Shhh... Can't let those I drag in trouble to reveal my intention. :-P
Am feeling guilty but I still made it. Waste time (not only mine), waste energy and waste money... And if the real purpose of my decision is being disclosed, woah, I couldn't imagine how terrible is the outcome.
Don't know what to wish myself. Good luck. For what? Whatever the results is, there's only 1 conclusion which I've already made.
I know I did wrong. What am doing just to satisfy my caprice.
Whatsoever. Just take it as a trial, just treat it as an experience, once in a lifetime.
"Grab a chance and you won't be sorry for a might-have-been."
Shhh... Can't let those I drag in trouble to reveal my intention. :-P
Friday, November 12, 2010
Reading Is For Pleasure, Not Pressure
Hmm... I think I became a spendthrift. I enjoy buying books......and keep them in my bookshelves to display.
Few months ago, I bought 3 books - , "Letters To Sam", "The Lovely Bones" and "10 Simple Truths That Will Set You Free Your Mind". I completed the 1st one within few days, the others yet to finish and I wonder could I finish it within this year?
Today I went to BORDERS and planned to buy 2 books - "I Think, Therefore I Laugh" and "Death Benefits". Unfortunately both of them out of stock and have to wait about 2 months if wanna make an order. I didn't order them... However, I like the services provided by that shop assistant. She was so helpful and so nice. She thought I'm a Psychology student since I search for such kinda books. :=)
Finally I bought a Chinese book from Popular "幸福就像狗尾巴 The Tales Of Bliss". Will those 55 different stories sharing in the book inspire me? Actually I always understood the principle of the reality but I just failed to carry out practically.
I believe am able to finish reading this new book within this weekend. The next book I gonna complete is.......
Few months ago, I bought 3 books -
Today I went to BORDERS and planned to buy 2 books - "I Think, Therefore I Laugh" and "Death Benefits
Finally I bought a Chinese book from Popular "幸福就像狗尾巴 The Tales Of Bliss". Will those 55 different stories sharing in the book inspire me? Actually I always understood the principle of the reality but I just failed to carry out practically.
I believe am able to finish reading this new book within this weekend. The next book I gonna complete is.......
Thursday, November 11, 2010
想要。不能要
有一些东西，很想要，可当你有机会要的时候，就会发现到自己究竟能不能够要？可不可以要？应不应该要？
理想，看见了，却无法伸手将它握住。理想，不可思议地出现一线曙光，但感觉上却是那么的遥不可及，那种距离甚至是相较之前眼前一片漆黑时，更为遥远。因为那时候完全看不见方向，可以有好多想象，而如今看见了方向，也认清了现实，承认走不进那一个未来，连想象都随即烟消云散。
想要勇敢地去闯，想去看世界的模样。那一刻，梦想真的很靠近，只要点一点头，也许一切就会不一样。可惜，惊喜没有蒙蔽理智，与此同时，仍然清楚眼前的路有太多荆棘，而会被沿途荆棘所伤的不只是追梦之人而已，是包括此人最亲的家人。牵挂，是一种牵绊，一种从来没有对错的负担。
从来不曾真正分析“想要”和“能够要”之间的差距，自以为是“能够要”是只要别人给予机会，就理所当然的能够接受。直到机会降临，才唤醒梦中人，看清现实并不如想象般简单，有些东西，不是说你想要，别人愿意给，你就可以心无旁骛地接受。有些梦的重量，是某些人提不起的。
曾听说：要或不要，决定权在于你自己。其实，并不然。有些事情是无法割舍、有些人是放不下的，“鱼与熊掌是不可兼得”。现实和梦想往往是背道而驰，现实中有太多顾虑，通往梦想的旅途是要经历很多的舍弃。“创造机会的人是天才；把握机会的人是庸才；放弃机会的人是蠢材”。当不上天才是理所当然，可至少会是庸才，却偏偏还是继续当蠢材。
不清醒下做的决定，被一通意料之外的电话惊醒，做了异常清醒下的选择。。。这会是将来人生中很深很深的遗憾吗？
握着手上的资料，无言以对。若回答一句“I can make it”是如此心虚；若回答一句“I can't make it”，是如此沉重。又再想起那一句“人生几何，好不容易遇上这样的年代，赶快来为自己做一些事情，”做一些事情？能做些什么事情？机会遇上了，不怕吃苦，却怕牵连旁人一起吃苦。
冲动是恶魔，是私心，不停地说“想要、我要！”理智是天使，是道德，重复地说“不能要、不应该要！”开不了口，还是得压抑心痛、强忍泪水地说：我不要！我做不到！
理想，看见了，却无法伸手将它握住。理想，不可思议地出现一线曙光，但感觉上却是那么的遥不可及，那种距离甚至是相较之前眼前一片漆黑时，更为遥远。因为那时候完全看不见方向，可以有好多想象，而如今看见了方向，也认清了现实，承认走不进那一个未来，连想象都随即烟消云散。
想要勇敢地去闯，想去看世界的模样。那一刻，梦想真的很靠近，只要点一点头，也许一切就会不一样。可惜，惊喜没有蒙蔽理智，与此同时，仍然清楚眼前的路有太多荆棘，而会被沿途荆棘所伤的不只是追梦之人而已，是包括此人最亲的家人。牵挂，是一种牵绊，一种从来没有对错的负担。
从来不曾真正分析“想要”和“能够要”之间的差距，自以为是“能够要”是只要别人给予机会，就理所当然的能够接受。直到机会降临，才唤醒梦中人，看清现实并不如想象般简单，有些东西，不是说你想要，别人愿意给，你就可以心无旁骛地接受。有些梦的重量，是某些人提不起的。
曾听说：要或不要，决定权在于你自己。其实，并不然。有些事情是无法割舍、有些人是放不下的，“鱼与熊掌是不可兼得”。现实和梦想往往是背道而驰，现实中有太多顾虑，通往梦想的旅途是要经历很多的舍弃。“创造机会的人是天才；把握机会的人是庸才；放弃机会的人是蠢材”。当不上天才是理所当然，可至少会是庸才，却偏偏还是继续当蠢材。
不清醒下做的决定，被一通意料之外的电话惊醒，做了异常清醒下的选择。。。这会是将来人生中很深很深的遗憾吗？
握着手上的资料，无言以对。若回答一句“I can make it”是如此心虚；若回答一句“I can't make it”，是如此沉重。又再想起那一句“人生几何，好不容易遇上这样的年代，赶快来为自己做一些事情，”做一些事情？能做些什么事情？机会遇上了，不怕吃苦，却怕牵连旁人一起吃苦。
冲动是恶魔，是私心，不停地说“想要、我要！”理智是天使，是道德，重复地说“不能要、不应该要！”开不了口，还是得压抑心痛、强忍泪水地说：我不要！我做不到！
Sunday, November 7, 2010
一个人的办公室
这个周六的办公室很安静，庞大的空间就只有我一人。那种感觉嘛，很宁静，很适合沉淀在这儿工作三个月以来的情绪。
从落地窗户看出去，就是瞭望无际的的大海，这是我在平日无暇也无心好好欣赏的景色。
我很喜欢目前的座位，犹如一位同事所言：远离是非、与世无争的好位置。
可惜啊，即将迁移到新的位置了。愿风水还是一样好吧！
从落地窗户看出去，就是瞭望无际的的大海，这是我在平日无暇也无心好好欣赏的景色。
我很喜欢目前的座位，犹如一位同事所言：远离是非、与世无争的好位置。
可惜啊，即将迁移到新的位置了。愿风水还是一样好吧！
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tiresome Saturday
I think I'm gonna to become ill soon.
This morning before gone to the office, my mind was sunny. After sitting in front of the computer looking at the reports... Dizzy+dizzy+dizzy! Almost collapse in the restroom.
I wondered was it 'cause I lack of sleep? During weekdays I couldn't sleep tight and nearly skipped lunch everyday... My weight has been decreased. Good news huh? Yup, it's the only good news for me right now but when I looked at my face... Become pale day after day. First time, feel a bit heartache about myself.
This morning before gone to the office, my mind was sunny. After sitting in front of the computer looking at the reports... Dizzy+dizzy+dizzy! Almost collapse in the restroom.
I wondered was it 'cause I lack of sleep? During weekdays I couldn't sleep tight and nearly skipped lunch everyday... My weight has been decreased. Good news huh? Yup, it's the only good news for me right now but when I looked at my face... Become pale day after day. First time, feel a bit heartache about myself.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
转载
前天，在某报章读到一篇对我而言很有意思的文章。题目是《有一种爱情叫宁缺勿滥》。
世界上有种爱情叫“宁缺勿滥”。这种爱情不一定100%完美。
对爱情宁缺勿滥的人也不一定有多优秀、多挑剔，他们只是在等待相遇，遇见那个他们要遇见的人，相爱并且适合的人。
他们要找的也未必是优秀、大家眼中100%的完美情人。
尽管现在的社会已经不流行宁缺勿滥，而是宁滥勿缺，骑牛找马的男女满街都有；但某处角落里，依然有人坚守宁缺勿滥的爱情。
或许你替他们常错过美好时光而可惜；也认为他们就像故事中的小和尚采玉蜀黍那样，走过了没有回头路。
宁缺勿滥的人不是稀罕他们在农庄里有没有采到玉蜀黍，他们要的玉蜀黍没有出现，其他再大再美再甜的玉蜀黍也不能让他们动心。
你可以说他们滥清高，别人永远无法体会他们对宁缺勿滥的坚持，他们希望自己的每一段情都是自己刻骨铭心的回忆，更会因为要寻找一份真爱而执著和等待，哪怕是用一生。
他们坚持爱情，宁缺勿滥。因为一个人寂寞，好过两个人的烦恼。
特别是女人，宁缺勿滥，爱情路上跌少点，伤轻点。
成为“剩女”并不可怕，可怕的是女人因为與论压力害怕孤独终老，而忙慌慌把自己嫁出去，以为如此一来便一了百了无后顾之忧了，殊不知，却是为今后的生活埋下“痛苦”的隐患。
恋爱、结婚、生儿育女，真的是女人应该经历的人生过程吗？很多女人为了“完成”而去“履行”这样的人生。
人人爱说，没有鱼，虾也好，然而，很多时候我们看到的，没有鱼，虾也不见得好。
宁缺勿滥到底，说不定最后龙虾会出现。
龙虾岂会那么容易遇见和拥有呢？天时、地利、人和，才能遇见自己认为对的人吧。感觉对了，面包和爱情兼具了，就是所谓的幸福吗？
世界上有种爱情叫“宁缺勿滥”。这种爱情不一定100%完美。
对爱情宁缺勿滥的人也不一定有多优秀、多挑剔，他们只是在等待相遇，遇见那个他们要遇见的人，相爱并且适合的人。
他们要找的也未必是优秀、大家眼中100%的完美情人。
尽管现在的社会已经不流行宁缺勿滥，而是宁滥勿缺，骑牛找马的男女满街都有；但某处角落里，依然有人坚守宁缺勿滥的爱情。
或许你替他们常错过美好时光而可惜；也认为他们就像故事中的小和尚采玉蜀黍那样，走过了没有回头路。
宁缺勿滥的人不是稀罕他们在农庄里有没有采到玉蜀黍，他们要的玉蜀黍没有出现，其他再大再美再甜的玉蜀黍也不能让他们动心。
你可以说他们滥清高，别人永远无法体会他们对宁缺勿滥的坚持，他们希望自己的每一段情都是自己刻骨铭心的回忆，更会因为要寻找一份真爱而执著和等待，哪怕是用一生。
他们坚持爱情，宁缺勿滥。因为一个人寂寞，好过两个人的烦恼。
特别是女人，宁缺勿滥，爱情路上跌少点，伤轻点。
成为“剩女”并不可怕，可怕的是女人因为與论压力害怕孤独终老，而忙慌慌把自己嫁出去，以为如此一来便一了百了无后顾之忧了，殊不知，却是为今后的生活埋下“痛苦”的隐患。
恋爱、结婚、生儿育女，真的是女人应该经历的人生过程吗？很多女人为了“完成”而去“履行”这样的人生。
人人爱说，没有鱼，虾也好，然而，很多时候我们看到的，没有鱼，虾也不见得好。
宁缺勿滥到底，说不定最后龙虾会出现。
龙虾岂会那么容易遇见和拥有呢？天时、地利、人和，才能遇见自己认为对的人吧。感觉对了，面包和爱情兼具了，就是所谓的幸福吗？
Monday, August 9, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
想回到过去（一）
这一个早晨，偷溜出工作岗位，到Gurney Drive看日出，再到Youth Park去走走。
Youth Park，一个留有我成长足迹的地方。
Youth Park，一个留有我成长足迹的地方。
小时候，家人经常会带我到那儿拿花生喂猴子。那时候，Youth Park非常简陋，大部份时间，我们都坐在停车场观赏成群结队的猴子，然后再到食堂去坐坐，而我总是买那儿最贵的冰淇淋。
这里的空气真的很清新，可以让思绪变得安定。这是从前没有的感受，因为童年时候没有烦恼，没有多余的思绪。。。自从Youth Park变装后，我都不曾和家人一起踏足这里了。十多年后，这里变漂亮了，我的家人却变苍老了。以前是家人载我来，如今是我自己驾车来。多么感触啊！是否有一天，我们会一起旧地重游呢？不太可能了吧。
写到这里，眼泪不自禁滑落了。一切历历在目。。。
小时候的我真的很幸福，要风地风，要雨得雨，因为我拥有最疼爱我的家人。
我的所有都是他们给我的，是他们呵护我长大的。
无论有多少流言蜚语，都不曾改变这份亲情，这是我一生最珍贵的回忆。
大学第一年第一学期，第一次离开家里住在大学宿舍，几乎每一个傍晚都会分别接到两通电话，那是一份感动、一份温暖。妈妈对我的爱，一早就了解，可干爹原来是真的那么关心我的，那时才深深领悟。。。表面上看似不存在的，一直都存在着。对我的好，我全都感受得到的。。。
写到这里，眼泪不自禁滑落了。一切历历在目。。。
小时候的我真的很幸福，要风地风，要雨得雨，因为我拥有最疼爱我的家人。
我的所有都是他们给我的，是他们呵护我长大的。
无论有多少流言蜚语，都不曾改变这份亲情，这是我一生最珍贵的回忆。
大学第一年第一学期，第一次离开家里住在大学宿舍，几乎每一个傍晚都会分别接到两通电话，那是一份感动、一份温暖。妈妈对我的爱，一早就了解，可干爹原来是真的那么关心我的，那时才深深领悟。。。表面上看似不存在的，一直都存在着。对我的好，我全都感受得到的。。。
Sunday, June 27, 2010
缅怀电视剧
一直以来，我对港剧都比较情有独钟，因为曾经的一部部脍炙人口的港剧都是陪伴我长大的。
我家楼下就是录影带出租中心（如今录影带已被淘汰，太可惜了！），姐姐又在那儿工作，因此我有机会观看很多的电视连续剧。
已经十多年了，可是好几部的港剧名称我还记得住，甚至当中的故事情节，依然历历在目，至于当中的角色，印象最深刻的就是罗嘉良在《天地男儿》中饰演的徐家立，我当时实在很讨厌他的角色，甚至还说如果他真人出现，不晓得会有多少人拿臭鸡蛋丢向他 :-P
而《笑看风云》的主题曲最令我刻骨铭心了，其实，那一年，我才七岁，难道我已经明白歌词的意思吗？难道我的中文造旨那么高？哈哈哈，可能那时并不明白那些意义吧，只是纯粹喜欢听而已。
《火玫瑰》这部剧集，我早己忘记它的剧名，直到最近在杂志上读到它的剧情介绍，感觉很熟悉，直到看见“海潮”这名字，我肯定了，那是我童年看过的港剧之一。
我家楼下就是录影带出租中心（如今录影带已被淘汰，太可惜了！），姐姐又在那儿工作，因此我有机会观看很多的电视连续剧。
已经十多年了，可是好几部的港剧名称我还记得住，甚至当中的故事情节，依然历历在目，至于当中的角色，印象最深刻的就是罗嘉良在《天地男儿》中饰演的徐家立，我当时实在很讨厌他的角色，甚至还说如果他真人出现，不晓得会有多少人拿臭鸡蛋丢向他 :-P
而《笑看风云》的主题曲最令我刻骨铭心了，其实，那一年，我才七岁，难道我已经明白歌词的意思吗？难道我的中文造旨那么高？哈哈哈，可能那时并不明白那些意义吧，只是纯粹喜欢听而已。
《火玫瑰》这部剧集，我早己忘记它的剧名，直到最近在杂志上读到它的剧情介绍，感觉很熟悉，直到看见“海潮”这名字，我肯定了，那是我童年看过的港剧之一。
《亲恩情未了》令我喜欢上郑秀文，她在剧中饰演律师，很有型，也很漂亮。我当时的一位朋友也是因此剧喜欢上她的。
还有好多好多的电视剧，包括：《宠物情缘》、《前世冤家》，《刑事侦缉档案I》，《刑事侦缉档案II》，《刑事侦缉档案III》等等。。。没有时间再回想了，要准备明天开工的东西了。
总而言之，就是不只这一些啦！
原来，我过去看过那么多电视剧，太不可思议了!
有一部连续剧不是港剧，是本地制作，而我在今天还记得的--《我主皇朝》，记得最清楚的就是剧中的那幢豪宅，那实在太豪华了。
还有好多好多的电视剧，包括：《宠物情缘》、《前世冤家》，《刑事侦缉档案I》，《刑事侦缉档案II》，《刑事侦缉档案III》等等。。。没有时间再回想了，要准备明天开工的东西了。
总而言之，就是不只这一些啦！
原来，我过去看过那么多电视剧，太不可思议了!
有一部连续剧不是港剧，是本地制作，而我在今天还记得的--《我主皇朝》，记得最清楚的就是剧中的那幢豪宅，那实在太豪华了。
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Lost x 3
I'm lost... Totally lost.
What do I want? What am I suppose to choose?
There's a chance, the only matter is do I afford to grab this chance?
Should I choose the one I've more confidence to deal with or choose the one which seems better?
It may seems better but it's still lousy if I can't play my role well.
I've to make a decision but after suffering insomnia, after discussing with few friends, I still don't know what to choose.
I'M SO LOST.......................................
What do I want? What am I suppose to choose?
There's a chance, the only matter is do I afford to grab this chance?
Should I choose the one I've more confidence to deal with or choose the one which seems better?
It may seems better but it's still lousy if I can't play my role well.
I've to make a decision but after suffering insomnia, after discussing with few friends, I still don't know what to choose.
I'M SO LOST.......................................
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
The Greatest Love
Today I felt touch when I read the headline of China Press. Actually, that wasn't headline, the writer called it as an advice.
The title of the article was 趁一切还来得及，告诉妈妈，你爱她, the writer mentioned a paragraph of 诗人余光中 《母难日》之《今生今世》.
“今生今世，我最忘情的哭声有两次，一次在我生命的开始，一次在你生命的告终。第一次我不会记得，是听你说的；第二次你不晓得，我说也没用。但两次哭声的中间啊，有无穷无尽的笑声，一篇又一篇，回荡了整整三十年，你都晓得，我都记得。”
It was so meaningful.
The writer also mentioned the mother dead in the accident with her 9-month old unborn baby few days ago. The doctor took out the baby girl and let her to sleep beside her mother forever.
The writer wrote a very impressing article which end with a sentence as below
“来不及听第一声哭声，来不及亲第一个吻，来不及送你一程。。。已是永恒；母爱，一路相随。”
I would like to praise this writer named 甄子权. I don't know him, I just know that his writing made me moved.
I LOVE YOU, MUMMY!
The title of the article was 趁一切还来得及，告诉妈妈，你爱她, the writer mentioned a paragraph of 诗人余光中 《母难日》之《今生今世》.
“今生今世，我最忘情的哭声有两次，一次在我生命的开始，一次在你生命的告终。第一次我不会记得，是听你说的；第二次你不晓得，我说也没用。但两次哭声的中间啊，有无穷无尽的笑声，一篇又一篇，回荡了整整三十年，你都晓得，我都记得。”
It was so meaningful.
The writer also mentioned the mother dead in the accident with her 9-month old unborn baby few days ago. The doctor took out the baby girl and let her to sleep beside her mother forever.
The writer wrote a very impressing article which end with a sentence as below
“来不及听第一声哭声，来不及亲第一个吻，来不及送你一程。。。已是永恒；母爱，一路相随。”
I would like to praise this writer named 甄子权. I don't know him, I just know that his writing made me moved.
I LOVE YOU, MUMMY!
Monday, May 3, 2010
An Ending Is A Beginning
Finally, the exam is over.
When I walked out from exam hall, I didn't feel as relieved as I thought.
I was exhausted.
I stopped doing revision last night 'cause I know it's no point to go on.
However, I couldn't fall in sleep whole night. That's why I was so tired after the second exam paper.
I entered kindergarten when I was 6, I'm 23 this year. 18 years of education, how much have I learned? My education journey comes to an end temporarily. It's time to confront a bigger challenge -- to compete in the work field.
What kinda career I want? What is my dream actually?
My future is gonna begin soon. I must take a step forward, otherwise, my future is gone.
When I walked out from exam hall, I didn't feel as relieved as I thought.
I was exhausted.
I stopped doing revision last night 'cause I know it's no point to go on.
However, I couldn't fall in sleep whole night. That's why I was so tired after the second exam paper.
I entered kindergarten when I was 6, I'm 23 this year. 18 years of education, how much have I learned? My education journey comes to an end temporarily. It's time to confront a bigger challenge -- to compete in the work field.
What kinda career I want? What is my dream actually?
My future is gonna begin soon. I must take a step forward, otherwise, my future is gone.
Friday, April 30, 2010
The Last Exam
I'll sit for 2 exams this coming Monday and I know I've no enough time to revise both of them.
I decided to give up 1 of them and chose to revise International Finance but it really could cost my life.
It's extremely hard!
I've a bit regret that I wasted last 2 weeks doing nothing but I guess the outcome would still be the same though I begin my revision 2 weeks ago.
My brain can't function ~ I tried to understand what I read but I was getting confused while I read more, I tried to memorize what I read but I forgot that while I got into new page...
It's my last exam paper after struggling 3 years in university and it seems very hard to manage.
I'm exhausted. I just wish these 2 papers over as soon as possible.
I shall be fine once I don't see the results... But, how about my job hunting?
There's another thing I've to worry about after my exams.
If I were given a chance, do I really afford to hold the chance?
God Bless Me!
I decided to give up 1 of them and chose to revise International Finance but it really could cost my life.
It's extremely hard!
I've a bit regret that I wasted last 2 weeks doing nothing but I guess the outcome would still be the same though I begin my revision 2 weeks ago.
My brain can't function ~ I tried to understand what I read but I was getting confused while I read more, I tried to memorize what I read but I forgot that while I got into new page...
It's my last exam paper after struggling 3 years in university and it seems very hard to manage.
I'm exhausted. I just wish these 2 papers over as soon as possible.
I shall be fine once I don't see the results... But, how about my job hunting?
There's another thing I've to worry about after my exams.
If I were given a chance, do I really afford to hold the chance?
God Bless Me!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Over Protection = Harm
It's natural for parents to protect their children, but they shouldn't be overprotective.
Loving the children in excess will just make them become dependent on their parents and don't know the ways of the world.
Every child will grow up, they might become weak and fragile.
They might be easily defeated by frustration, depression or disappointment.
They might not afford to endure any trial or refusal...
Dear all daddies and mummies, if you're impossible to take care of your children for their lifetime, you've to train them to be independent when they're young.
The world is cruel, those on the outside will not love or care your children as you do. If you really wanna protect your children, you've to let them contact with the community and make them understand the methods to survive in this crude world.
Otherwise, you may regret when you find out that your over-protection harms your lovely children, you make them can't accommodate themselves to the society. That'll be too late to help your children then.
Loving the children in excess will just make them become dependent on their parents and don't know the ways of the world.
Every child will grow up, they might become weak and fragile.
They might be easily defeated by frustration, depression or disappointment.
They might not afford to endure any trial or refusal...
Dear all daddies and mummies, if you're impossible to take care of your children for their lifetime, you've to train them to be independent when they're young.
The world is cruel, those on the outside will not love or care your children as you do. If you really wanna protect your children, you've to let them contact with the community and make them understand the methods to survive in this crude world.
Otherwise, you may regret when you find out that your over-protection harms your lovely children, you make them can't accommodate themselves to the society. That'll be too late to help your children then.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Lost My Way
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Dear Girls
Finally, my mid-term exam has over.
Hooray!!!
Actually, I wasn't really being under stress in last 2 weeks.
If not, I won't keep playing online games. ^^
The first thing I did after the exam was online searching for a song which I didn't know the title or singer.
I heard this song on the radio while I was driving yesterday.
That was the second time I listened to it and it made me feel so depressed.
Girls, always remember that we shouldn't lose ourselves in the process of finding love.
We have to love and accept ourselves before we learn to love somebody, 'cause without that, nothing else matters.
Hooray!!!
Actually, I wasn't really being under stress in last 2 weeks.
If not, I won't keep playing online games. ^^
The first thing I did after the exam was online searching for a song which I didn't know the title or singer.
I heard this song on the radio while I was driving yesterday.
That was the second time I listened to it and it made me feel so depressed.
I've Never Been To Me is an old song written by Ron Miller, Kenneth Hirsch and performed by Charlene Oliver née D'Angelo in 1982.
Girls, always remember that we shouldn't lose ourselves in the process of finding love.
We have to love and accept ourselves before we learn to love somebody, 'cause without that, nothing else matters.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
A Warm Text Message
After a nap, I saw a forward text message on my cell phone. It was sent by an old friend that I just met again on Facebook last night after a few years separation.
Such a forward text message about friendship maybe meant nothing to me ordinarily, but today it's seemed different.
There're many things happened to me recently and yet I've a lot of tasks to complete. I'm so fatigued. This text message is a timely support.
My heart is warm in this cold late afternoon.
Thank you, Summer!
Such a forward text message about friendship maybe meant nothing to me ordinarily, but today it's seemed different.
There're many things happened to me recently and yet I've a lot of tasks to complete. I'm so fatigued. This text message is a timely support.
My heart is warm in this cold late afternoon.
Thank you, Summer!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
她的故事之3月3 日
有一些人，有一些事，有一些歌，是刻骨铭心的。
《情债》
如果我有勇气坦白 不会这样的感慨
你的爱我是如此依赖 我的心你却不明白
虽然你是一个男人 总该有个未来 告诉世界有你存在
但我只是一个女人 需要一点关怀 安安定定在身边的爱
就算有再多的无奈 你也是看不出来
有人说寂寞是最难捱 你可曾为我而悲哀
其实身为一个女人 可以不必忍耐 等人来陪等人来爱
但我遇上你这男人 就像陷入大海 提也不起放也放不开
日子一天一天醒来 我一天一天徘徊 面对这份感情的债
当你一次一次走开 一次一次回来 好怕也会留下点伤害
日子一天一天醒来 我一天一天徘徊 面对这份感情的债
或许没有该与不该 无关爱与不爱 痛过的人自然会明白
当年，
也许他帮助她，是无心之举，可是她爱他，是真心真意。
这些年来，她拥有，失去，拥有，再失去。
《没你的日子》
没你的日子里 我的心该放哪里 一起走到这里 不能再一起
还以为拥挤的人群 可以调走我想你的心 任何一个背影 都让我以为是你
关于你的消息 我还是那么留意 任由它一点一滴 占据我思绪
然而我对你的情意 难道他们没有提起 想亲口说明 却怕他还在你心里
想你是我一生最亮的星 为何陪我到天明
天亮之后却又让我 找也找不到你
想我是你窗外孤单的雨 是否还记得叮咛
我不在时 你会不会 好好照顾自己
没你的日子里 朋友们还有相聚 关于你的消息 我还有留意
我总是有意无意 说起对你的情意 如果你想关心 他们会向你提起
她懂的，
然而，
是她有太多顾虑，一直在逃避，一直在伤害自己。
《怀念》
关起满室不足的氧气 点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸
搜索脑里未完的龃龉 对着空气还击着你的问题
推辞每次真实的相聚 困着自己渴望着你的消息
沾沾自喜拒绝的魅力 不着痕迹享受着与你的距离
也许喜欢怀念你 多于看见你 我也许喜欢想象你 多于得到你
我关起满室不足的氧气 点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸
散落一地断续的谜语 对着空气还击着你的问题
推辞每次真实的相聚 困着自己 渴望着你的消息
翻来覆去甜蜜的话语 故作神秘延续着你的好奇
也许喜欢怀念你 多于看见你 我也许喜欢想象你 不需要抱着你
也许喜欢怀念你 多于看见你
我也许喜欢想象你 受不了真一起
他门之间若即若离的交集，
她缅怀了很多遍，编写了很多遍。
她累了，泪干了，心力交瘁了。
不想了，不写了。
《爱。无力》
最后我们分开了 虽然还是朋友 但做回朋友的情人 想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯 习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘 不该在身旁 陪着我的每个夜晚
我只想对着天空轻轻的呼吸 寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中 搬箱倒柜 寻找记忆 有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣 不懂爱情 我的心如此无力
其实我很清醒 其实我很冷静 看着眼泪滴落在手心
她和他的故事，其实在她流着泪说再见的清晨早已结束。
她再也没有勇气面对他，向他坦诚。
他是好人，他会实现他的梦，他会遇见一个懂得爱他的人。
《街角的祝福》
多少个秋多少个冬 我几乎快要被治愈好
但还是会只因为一个重复的话题就 无心自扰
也曾想过若真遇见 我们应该如何是好
我想我还是会站在某一个街角 不让你看到
只因为我不想打扰 只因为怕你解释不了
只因为现在你的眼睛里 她比我还重要
我只好假装我看不到 看不到你和她在对街拥抱
你的快乐我可以感受得到 这样的见面方式对谁都好
我只好假装我听不到 听不到别人口中的她好不好
再不想问 也不想被通知到 反正你的世界我管不了
若不想问 若不想被通知到 就把祝福留在街角
所有任性、眷恋、牵挂、感伤。。。走远了。
3月3日，相遇10周年，是她爱他的终结点。
爱一个人对她而言太沉重了。
《没那么简单》
没那么简单 就能找到聊得来的伴 尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍 谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那么简单 就能去爱 别的全不看 变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯 不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐 就忙东忙西 感觉累了 就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听 自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪 一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机 舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那么容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易 才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂得年纪 曾经是最掏心 所以最开心
曾经想念最伤心 但却最动心的记忆
关于他的一切，他为她做的那些许，
不需要刻意的惦记，却怎样都无法忘记。
她爱过他，是不灭的事实。。。只是那些都是过去的事了。
如今，她已失去爱的力气，但她相信她会幸福的，
她会好好的爱自己。
Sunday, February 28, 2010
It's Time To Work Hard!
I've been kept wasting my time from the beginning of this term.
No motivation, no revision, no study, no assignment... I'm just day-dreaming all the time.
"Please, don't be a lazybones anymore, time is running out!"
Chinese New Year will be over after 12a.m. tonight, I give no excuse for my laziness.
I've to get ready for my upcoming midterm exam and to complete my projects which I've done nothing so far.
However, I've to do a few things before drown myself in those scary school works.
First of all, I've to tidy up my bedroom. Then, I've to change my mattress cover and pillow case. After that, I've to do revision for badminton theory test tomorrow.
Tomorrow is March 1st, a brand new month, a brand new day, a brand new life.
No motivation, no revision, no study, no assignment... I'm just day-dreaming all the time.
"Please, don't be a lazybones anymore, time is running out!"
Chinese New Year will be over after 12a.m. tonight, I give no excuse for my laziness.
I've to get ready for my upcoming midterm exam and to complete my projects which I've done nothing so far.
However, I've to do a few things before drown myself in those scary school works.
First of all, I've to tidy up my bedroom. Then, I've to change my mattress cover and pillow case. After that, I've to do revision for badminton theory test tomorrow.
Tomorrow is March 1st, a brand new month, a brand new day, a brand new life.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Inspiration From A Quote
Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well by Josh Billings. I like the meaning of this quote!
People love to complain about everything, people never satisfy with what they owned, people used to ask for more... This is so called human nature.
Actually, we don't have to admire other people, we should appreciate what we've got. We should be grateful if we were born healthy, this was already the most precious gift given to us by God.
Those people who are born with a silver spoon in their mouths are lucky but what's wrong if we're not born in a rich family?
Maybe I ain't as super lucky as someone else, i.e. I've never won in any lucky draw contest so far but it doesn't mean that I won't win it in the near future.
In my opinion, we should not compare ourselves to other people and keep complaining about lives. On the contrary, we should pleased with what we owned and using them to breed our future success.
It's OK that we' re born in poor, we could achieve our success through hard work. I believe everyone's effort is bound to be successful. Every dog has its day!
People love to complain about everything, people never satisfy with what they owned, people used to ask for more... This is so called human nature.
Actually, we don't have to admire other people, we should appreciate what we've got. We should be grateful if we were born healthy, this was already the most precious gift given to us by God.
Those people who are born with a silver spoon in their mouths are lucky but what's wrong if we're not born in a rich family?
Maybe I ain't as super lucky as someone else, i.e. I've never won in any lucky draw contest so far but it doesn't mean that I won't win it in the near future.
In my opinion, we should not compare ourselves to other people and keep complaining about lives. On the contrary, we should pleased with what we owned and using them to breed our future success.
It's OK that we' re born in poor, we could achieve our success through hard work. I believe everyone's effort is bound to be successful. Every dog has its day!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Happy Birthday, Babe
Today is your 5th birthday. I created this blog especially for you, my baby.I'm not sure will this blog still be using when you are grown up and learn to surf internet. That time I must be old already :(( ...
If you view my blog in the future, you have to leave a comment for this post. This is an order from your 姨姨, understand?! ^ ^
Baby, I know it's too cruel for asking you to accept the heartbreaking truth at such a young age. However, you must always remember there are a lot of people loving you in this world. We care about you, we love you so much, we really do.
You are a well-behaved child though sometimes you are very talkative. I hope that you could be one of the happiest children in the world. You deserve a lovely childhood as every child does.
Happy Birthday, my lovely little nephew.
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